Post by Vesuveus on Jun 11, 2009 22:39:23 GMT -5
Another Chronicle of a Coppertop
1st draft
Things were going according to plan, kind of. We met in college and dated on and off for a few years. When she told me the baby was coming, I was happy first and scared second. I put a lot behind me that day and jumped head first into adulthood.
The baby came out to be a girl. She looked like my baby pictures and I loved her so much; I loved both of the girls in my life. She was growing up fast and things couldn't get any better. Things could only get worse. And things did get worse.
I had lost all my friends when I went to college. I made new friends in college, but I lost them when it was over and we all moved away. Research and the job and then the family took up all my time. When she left me our friends became her friends. I was alone.
The loud, messy, busy apartment turned into the small, dark, boring studio. I went from paying for 1 rent, 1 TV service, 1 electric bill and 1 car to 2 of each of those things. Then eventually back to only 1 of those things. I just couldn't keep up.
I called some old friends to learn most of them didn't have the time or patience to be a friend anymore. Especially when a break-up was the subject. Oh well. I didn't want to be a burden to anyone. The only one who listened to me, even a little bit, was my old college adviser. She really went to lengths for people. It was clear she cared. She listened to me drone on about the marriage and the kids and the money and the split. It got to the point where I wouldn't even want to hear myself talk about it anymore.
So many regrets.
So I turned to work. I still had success in the office. Research was something I was good at. I could do all this research, lose myself in the scientific method, draw conclusions and then report it to people for large sums of money. I was always right, too. It really wasn't hard. All the information was there, I just put it together.
That Friday I went to the meeting where I was presenting my latest findings. The board was particularly dry that day and so was my throat. Usually when I drone on, they at least nod along. But not today. They just sat there like stooges, staring blankly. When I finished they didn't even move. I activated the lights via remote and was taken back by what I saw.
The counsel chair was pouring a glass of water. The glass should have been full but he just kept pouring. I watched as the glass would nearly fill, then it would blink and be empty. It nearly filled and then blinked. Empty again.
Deja vu?!
So many regrets. Walking home that night I knew that was the end. I really didn't want any part of them any longer after that night. So college resumed and I didn't need friends like that anymore. I had new friends. New people to grow with. We were on the same page. I never missed the old gang after that night.
But what if I hadn't left? I guess I'll never know now.
to be continued and revised
1st draft
Things were going according to plan, kind of. We met in college and dated on and off for a few years. When she told me the baby was coming, I was happy first and scared second. I put a lot behind me that day and jumped head first into adulthood.
The baby came out to be a girl. She looked like my baby pictures and I loved her so much; I loved both of the girls in my life. She was growing up fast and things couldn't get any better. Things could only get worse. And things did get worse.
I had lost all my friends when I went to college. I made new friends in college, but I lost them when it was over and we all moved away. Research and the job and then the family took up all my time. When she left me our friends became her friends. I was alone.
The loud, messy, busy apartment turned into the small, dark, boring studio. I went from paying for 1 rent, 1 TV service, 1 electric bill and 1 car to 2 of each of those things. Then eventually back to only 1 of those things. I just couldn't keep up.
I called some old friends to learn most of them didn't have the time or patience to be a friend anymore. Especially when a break-up was the subject. Oh well. I didn't want to be a burden to anyone. The only one who listened to me, even a little bit, was my old college adviser. She really went to lengths for people. It was clear she cared. She listened to me drone on about the marriage and the kids and the money and the split. It got to the point where I wouldn't even want to hear myself talk about it anymore.
So many regrets.
So I turned to work. I still had success in the office. Research was something I was good at. I could do all this research, lose myself in the scientific method, draw conclusions and then report it to people for large sums of money. I was always right, too. It really wasn't hard. All the information was there, I just put it together.
That Friday I went to the meeting where I was presenting my latest findings. The board was particularly dry that day and so was my throat. Usually when I drone on, they at least nod along. But not today. They just sat there like stooges, staring blankly. When I finished they didn't even move. I activated the lights via remote and was taken back by what I saw.
The counsel chair was pouring a glass of water. The glass should have been full but he just kept pouring. I watched as the glass would nearly fill, then it would blink and be empty. It nearly filled and then blinked. Empty again.
Deja vu?!
So many regrets. Walking home that night I knew that was the end. I really didn't want any part of them any longer after that night. So college resumed and I didn't need friends like that anymore. I had new friends. New people to grow with. We were on the same page. I never missed the old gang after that night.
But what if I hadn't left? I guess I'll never know now.
to be continued and revised